Keep both,can i??

My dear ,please forgive me for making you confused..
for making you anxious and causing you to come and ask me..
"Who's the one that is important to you?"
"The person who is in your heart,it is him or me?"
I don't know how to say to you..
will it be wrong if i say that both of you're equally important to me..
Maybe it seems selfish of me,when you're so good to me
and he's also important because he's the one i love..
If i dream of you like him or he's extremely good like you,
these things that i ask myself shouldn't be difficult..
Don't tell me to choose because i really don't know,don't know who to choose..
If i lose you i''ll be lonely,to lose him ill be sad..
I don't want choose anyone,want to keep both of you in my heart..
I know that's not good to do this..in the end i'll have noone..
This circumstance that happen also makes my heart hurt!